Last week has been good. I feel like I am living again and not just surviving. It might be temporary but I am soaking in this feeling that I can give each of my chicken nuggets the time and care that they need. I am happier. Troy is happier because I am happier. And I think the kids can feel the change too. And I even get some time to myself.
Aleksi is napping consistently well. I just need to remember this when I struggle with this #4, yes I can think of the possibility of #4 now, that life will get more even by six months and not be so focused on the scheduled and "what should be happening". I don't know if it is possible for me to relax about that but I will try. Even during the past six months when I was feeling exhausted, and overwhelmed and when I cried because I felt inadequate or hopeless because of lack of sleep, I did not wish for Aleksi to grow up faster. It felt like he was growing just the right pace. Now that he is starting to sit up on his own and play with his toys, I remember how much I love this age and the new developments that take place from here on.
Aleksi is also liking the stroller so we have started to go on runs and walks together. This again reminds me of how much difference a literal sunshine and fresh air can make.
For many weeks, I had big plans to get a picture of all of the kids and myself before or after church. Since church is at 8:30 and I have to be there around 8 to get everything ready for Primary, the before church doesn't happen. Finally this Sunday I got everyone posing and I now have a picture of these beautiful kids and myself.
I don't get dressed up too often, so it is good to have a record of the way I look when I do put on some make up and dress up:)